I was really tired that day
Like I am everyday. I was exhausted, after solving math (how typical) and studying for the exams coming up next month. Pressure was building up on me, especially since I performed real bad in the previous exam.
I got so frustrated after a while, I just banged my books. I didn’t understand what was troubling me. My head felt so heavy. That’s when I realized, I was just being too hard on myself. I was overstretched.
There’s very simple things that bring joy to us. For me, things that bring joy are some little things like baking, photography, painting or writing something, or watching a bts video (the crackhead stuff) and listening to a sad taylor swift song
but that makes me sad again . At that point of time, my mind feels at peace. I feel so pleasant while cycling during evenings with soft sunlight and gentle wind.
Just when things seem purposeless, or you feel aimless, you need to do a few things by yourself. Spending time with yourself. For me, I know the time for leisure has come when I am sick of everything I do. When my head, body and mind feels heavy.
A new hobby I found was- painting. A budding Pablo Picasso coming straight up. I never thought I was any good at painting, but once I got the hang of it, it felt doable. Painting is kinda abstract so you can have like a predefined picture of what you want but it goes in a COMPLETELY different way.
Then I began writing a story. I don’t know if I can call it a novel yet, but it’s as of now just a plot that is loosely held by some words, lol. It’s a mixture of so many genres and tropes, for now, I’m thinking of calling it “my mess”.
I’ve been deep in my own heap of study these days. My mom says I’m being too much of a nerd. I hate the word nerd. What do you say?
I’ve also been reading this book “One of us is lying” by Karen McManus. It’s interesting till the point I’ve read, thank you so much Book bloggers for that book rec!
Our school began online once again though :( Just when I thought school would be normal, wham! Online school. Truth be spoken, I HATE online school. My eyes hurt, and it’s too boring without any interaction. Like mischief with friends.
But! Since I was part of the Republic day event at school (ahem- I was the emcee-), I did find my cue to go to school. I found such beautiful bougainvillea blossoms, in white! They looked so prettyyyy~
I wonder if I’ll have the chance again to go to school.
There we go with the sadness again. This post was supposed to be happy.
Anyways, I hope y’all are doing well. Keep being weird, spend some time with yourself, stay hydrated and this is where I end today. Sayonara.
Not-so-daintily loving you,