Some things, you need to do with yourself- a small little life update+chit-chat

I was really tired that day Like I am everyday. I was exhausted, after solving math (how typical) and studying for the exams coming up next month. Pressure was building up on me, especially since I performed real bad in the previous exam.

I got so frustrated after a while, I just banged my books. I didn’t understand what was troubling me. My head felt so heavy. That’s when I realized, I was just being too hard on myself. I was overstretched.

There’s very simple things that bring joy to us. For me, things that bring joy are some little things like baking, photography, painting or writing something, or watching a bts video (the crackhead stuff) and listening to a sad taylor swift song but that makes me sad again . At that point of time, my mind feels at peace. I feel so pleasant while cycling during evenings with soft sunlight and gentle wind.

Just when things seem purposeless, or you feel aimless, you need to do a few things by yourself. Spending time with yourself. For me, I know the time for leisure has come when I am sick of everything I do. When my head, body and mind feels heavy.

A new hobby I found was- painting. A budding Pablo Picasso coming straight up. I never thought I was any good at painting, but once I got the hang of it, it felt doable. Painting is kinda abstract so you can have like a predefined picture of what you want but it goes in a COMPLETELY different way.

Then I began writing a story. I don’t know if I can call it a novel yet, but it’s as of now just a plot that is loosely held by some words, lol. It’s a mixture of so many genres and tropes, for now, I’m thinking of calling it “my mess”.

I’ve been deep in my own heap of study these days. My mom says I’m being too much of a nerd. I hate the word nerd. What do you say?

I’ve also been reading this book “One of us is lying” by Karen McManus. It’s interesting till the point I’ve read, thank you so much Book bloggers for that book rec!

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Our school began online once again though :( Just when I thought school would be normal, wham! Online school. Truth be spoken, I HATE online school. My eyes hurt, and it’s too boring without any interaction. Like mischief with friends.

But! Since I was part of the Republic day event at school (ahem- I was the emcee-), I did find my cue to go to school. I found such beautiful bougainvillea blossoms, in white! They looked so prettyyyy~

I wonder if I’ll have the chance again to go to school.

There we go with the sadness again.

This post was supposed to be happy.

Anyways, I hope y’all are doing well. Keep being weird, spend some time with yourself, stay hydrated and this is where I end today. Sayonara.

Not-so-daintily loving you,

Divi.

Getting out of my hole of procrastination (again)

Hello! I have been so irregular with the blog. Guess why? I chose to procrastinate over this. My apologies, again.

So, I’ve been sinking in the hole of procrastination again. At this point of time, I’ve realized something. It’s only natural to do this. Procrastination was meant to happen, to deviate our minds. It’s just like another piece in a chess game.

But how I got out of it, it’s a long story.

So it began this way. In the Xmas holidays, I sorted out my life. I reoriented myself to work towards my goal(s). I began to be organized, I started with the so called “perfect life”. But then after I recovered from covid early January this year (I know, such a bad start for a new year), I started using this excuse of “recovery” trauma.

I binge watched series and films, because I was “recovering” and I needed to feel good.

I did art stuff to make me feel good.

I inclined toward pleasure, because I had “trauma”.

And…I lost focus in practically every single thing I did.

After I realized I was being too much of a master procrastinator, I hatched a plan.

  1. I would finish a chunk of work
  2. Watch whatever I was watching
  3. Get back to my work
  4. repeat.

This was a good system when I was watching something very gripping. Like a series or a film or reading a very interesting book. Let’s say, finish 10 long history essay type questions, get 10 minutes of watch/ reading time.

It is very efficient, until I discovered a loophole. When I traded every history question for a minute of leisure, I sometimes, you know, extended it. Like 10 questions= 20 minutes of procrastination.

The starting, goes smooth, but long term, well, back to day 1. So, I figured a better way.

We’re humans, and as good as we can be while being stubborn, we also tend to get deviated. So, an atmosphere where there can be no possible distractions (like, literally nothing), you’d succeed in finishing your work, zero procrastination. But this isn’t practical. We live in the tech era, if you forgot.

I wouldn’t suggest you downloading procrastination-free apps or something as such (though they can be useful, but they have their own flaws and CAN be cheated). Instead, try to think really hard.

Remind yourself what is at stake. Like a paper that is due the next day or a project goal you need to submit by midnight. Get to know yourself. Can you do it if you procrastinate? Are you capable enough?

Well if you budge a yes to these questions, you’re free to procrastinate. But what is at stake is quality work . If you stay up till midnight and get the work till it chokes you, sorry, but you won’t get your work done either.

So, remind yourself what you’ll be losing if you procrastinate. Then you’d be afraid to do whatever it is you’re doing.

Couple of other inputs you can try-

  • Try to go for non-tech options: Like resources or something, you can use books or papers from library. You can turn towards your laptop when you really feel you need it.
  • Sit in supervision: Don’t ask someone to superintend you, just go sit somewhere in a place where there are people. You could work on your pc, and you’d feel a “fake” pressure of completing your work, because you don’t wanna show the other person that you’re a total waste, and you wouldn’t want them to see that your work process is really sloppy.
  • Keep a water bottle beside: Really helps when you think you’re going to fall asleep. We tend to procrastinate when we don’t have a lot of energy and are entering a state where we don’t want to do a SINGLE THING. Drinking water gives your brain some activity and plus, it’s a good skincare hack. (Glowing skin like BTS hehe.)
  • Learn to take a break: You never really procrastinate when you’ve already had your dose of break. You procrastinate because either you don’t want to do that task or you’re longing for a break. Breaks help you to solve both the problems. Cut off procrastination, just like that.

So, that’s it for this week, readers!

Also, I’m gonna be launching a new blog series in a while, but before I can write, I’ll need your participation! Stay tuned for the post!

Not-so-daintily loving you,

Divi.

My reading goals of the year +Plan your reading for the year with me!

Hello readers! The last year was such a lesson, especially when it came to books. My life never felt so empty. Before that, my life was filled with stories of so many fictional and real characters, it was easy to distract myself from something that’s bothering me. Last year, for some stupid reason, I stopped reading.

I tried so much, but I just, couldn’t get myself to read. But now I feel, I need to get something to distract myself. So here are my reading goals for 2022, and feel free to grab a notepad, to plan out your year too!

How many books I’m wanting to read

I’m planning to read 30. I don’t want to set too many unrealistic goals for myself. I’m going to get myself to read 30, and slowly raise the bar high. I’m feeling, maybe I’ll raise till…60?

So, you could decide your number based on your capacity and of course, time. 30 books for me takes not much time, and I could easily incorporate that in my daily life, yours would depend on how hectic your schedule is.

What genres I want to read

Genres are very important. My book genres kinda define my vibe of the year. One year, I chose fantasy as my genre, I imagined being in Hogwarts. No, seriously.

This year, I want to read-

  • Young Adult- This genre is pretty broad, because there’s relatable teenage protagonists with relatable problems. This would include dystopian, romance, fantasy and everything else.
  • Dystopian- After reading hunger games, I’m pretty much convinced dystopian is my genre. I’m looking for more books like HG, maybe I’ll get lucky?
  • Crime- It’s kind of scary to think about crime, but I feel I have to try this out.
  • Action and adventure- Definitely my genre. I could read all day about protagonists going on life-defining trips filled with action. I definitely feel good about such books.
  • Mystery- Detective and thrillers are so interesting to read. Definitely on my list.

Top 10 TBR

For the unversed, tbr means to-be-read. Add that one in your glossary. Coming back to the list, a good tbr leads to reading good books. It gives a nice starting point. So my top 10 TBR are-

  • As good as dead- I was reading this one last year, but I left it in the middle of the process. I should start this one again, because the plotline is excellent.
  • A good girl’s guide to murder- I recently read a book review, this excited me SO MUCH.
  • Daisy jones and the six- After reading The Seven husbands of Evelyn Hugo, Taylor Jenkins Reid has officially become one of my favorite authors. Hence, this pick.

  • Turtles all the way down- I cannot say no to a book that has John Green’s name on it.
  • Fangirl- This is a book blogger recommendation! She told this was a book she’s read several times. That cannot stop me from reading.
  • It ends with us- One of my besties’s book rec. She has been fangirling over this.

  • Thirteen reasons why- I don’t know, the book cover interested me.
  • These violent delights- I heard it’s really good. Plus, the synopsis is AMAZING.

  • Our violent ends- It’s the sequel to the previous one, I have to read it.
  • The cruel prince- This book is called, been-on-my-tbr-for-long. I have to give it justice.

BONUS: Six of crows, because my friend wouldn’t stop begging me to read this.

When I plan to read

Everyday. I want to make this a habit. I would like to spend at least an hour reading. I know that going into 10th grade the coming year, I wouldn’t get as much time to read. But I’d like to be more productive and continue my reading habit.

As for you, on the other side of the computer, make your own call about how much time you should spend. Reading more shouldn’t mean placing everything else aside. Reading should be *in sync* with everything else.

I should do that first.


So that was…it. I know I haven’t posted that frequently in quite a while. My family and I tested positive for covid 19, so I wasn’t that active on wordpress. I missed out on comments and new posts. But since I’m better, I’m sure I’ll be regular now. Expect a post once a week, on Mondays! I’ll also reply to your comments sooner!

The QOTD-

What are your reading plans for 2022? How many books are you gonna read?

Let me know your answers!

Not-so-daintily loving you,

Divi.