Yes, I still exist! || A life update.

*opens her drafts after weeks*

Hey everyone! I hope you’re all doing well! I know it’s been a while. Today I chose to crack my knuckles and finally begin writing a blog post.

So where was I all this time? Nowhere new, just same old home, and school. I was preoccupied for a while, with all the “new-school-year” crap, and things got real now. I always thought managing a blog and school will not change despite offline school, but no, I’ve successfully managed to fail at that.

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No that does not mean that I’ll stop writing. It just *motivated* me to be more extracurricular and that life, isn’t only school.

Quick question- How much do I like Tenth grade?

Umm…

*scratches her head*

Out of 10 maybe a 6. Tenth grade is nice, right now, because I’m just one month in. But I think it is stressful, about how much you need to study. And peer pressure about how much you need to study JUST because you’re in tenth grade. I find it difficult to manage hundred things once right now, I was an expert at it once. So ninth graders going into tenth, take notes, you need to be good at multitasking. (Wow, I’m giving advice already.)

One important thing I’ve been wanting to say for a while was that, no matter how busy you are, never neglect time for yourself. Overworking only brings ruin (why does that sound so evil-) for you in the long run. Take care of yourself!

Also, I guess I finally came out of my book reading slump.

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I’ve read quite a few books in a while, but apart from that I also think I finally found my mystery novels groove. With Agatha Christie. I’m just disappointed why I didn’t read her books, and why I was prioritizing reading Conan Doyle. I don’t think I’ve read those many plot twists in Sherlock Holmes, frankly speaking, they’re way too predictable and I sometimes find myself “obliged” to read them. A reason why I don’t like Conan Doyle. (I’ll save the dislike for another post.) I stan Agatha Christie. I also I think I became a fan of Colleen Hoover’s books.

What else is interesting? Can I say I don’t know? All I’ve done lately is eat, study, binge watch Slayy Point (why didn’t I watch their channel before???) and try to be a more determined person. Past few weeks were like so lazy and dispassionate. I felt to less creative. Okay, brace yourself for my melodrama- I felt old.

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I don’t know if I’m right about this but I always associate being old with something negative. Old is non-creative, old is not fresh, old is stale (wait but isn’t it already?). And lately I’m not liking this word, because I feel old, I don’t feel young or the jumpy, hyper-excited person I usually am (my opinion, no hate towards being old). Nobody noticed this because I didn’t show, because I try to be jumpy, in hopes that it will make me feel jumpy. Kind of like fake it till you make it situation.

Then I realized. That I had a freaking blog, on which I am supposed to write and post freely.

I’m being melodramatic again, but I felt better while reflecting and writing this post. I was on the verge of killing my creativity, but happily, I’m back to blogging! I think I’ll feel non-old now.

So after a long time….

Not-so-daintily loving you,

Divi.

Some things, you need to do with yourself- a small little life update+chit-chat

I was really tired that day Like I am everyday. I was exhausted, after solving math (how typical) and studying for the exams coming up next month. Pressure was building up on me, especially since I performed real bad in the previous exam.

I got so frustrated after a while, I just banged my books. I didn’t understand what was troubling me. My head felt so heavy. That’s when I realized, I was just being too hard on myself. I was overstretched.

There’s very simple things that bring joy to us. For me, things that bring joy are some little things like baking, photography, painting or writing something, or watching a bts video (the crackhead stuff) and listening to a sad taylor swift song but that makes me sad again . At that point of time, my mind feels at peace. I feel so pleasant while cycling during evenings with soft sunlight and gentle wind.

Just when things seem purposeless, or you feel aimless, you need to do a few things by yourself. Spending time with yourself. For me, I know the time for leisure has come when I am sick of everything I do. When my head, body and mind feels heavy.

A new hobby I found was- painting. A budding Pablo Picasso coming straight up. I never thought I was any good at painting, but once I got the hang of it, it felt doable. Painting is kinda abstract so you can have like a predefined picture of what you want but it goes in a COMPLETELY different way.

Then I began writing a story. I don’t know if I can call it a novel yet, but it’s as of now just a plot that is loosely held by some words, lol. It’s a mixture of so many genres and tropes, for now, I’m thinking of calling it “my mess”.

I’ve been deep in my own heap of study these days. My mom says I’m being too much of a nerd. I hate the word nerd. What do you say?

I’ve also been reading this book “One of us is lying” by Karen McManus. It’s interesting till the point I’ve read, thank you so much Book bloggers for that book rec!

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Our school began online once again though :( Just when I thought school would be normal, wham! Online school. Truth be spoken, I HATE online school. My eyes hurt, and it’s too boring without any interaction. Like mischief with friends.

But! Since I was part of the Republic day event at school (ahem- I was the emcee-), I did find my cue to go to school. I found such beautiful bougainvillea blossoms, in white! They looked so prettyyyy~

I wonder if I’ll have the chance again to go to school.

There we go with the sadness again.

This post was supposed to be happy.

Anyways, I hope y’all are doing well. Keep being weird, spend some time with yourself, stay hydrated and this is where I end today. Sayonara.

Not-so-daintily loving you,

Divi.